Clarion SD 2010

Clarion has announced their class of 2010. Congratulations to all of you. I promise I am not secretly wishing for poisonous piranhas to attack you in your bath tub (though those wait-listers might be). I wish you all the best of luck.

Here’s the list:

Gregory Bossert
Stacie Brown
John Chu
William Farrar
Erin Gonzales
Jessica Hilt
Jennifer Hsyu
Adam Israel
Dustin Monk
Tamsyn Muir
Laura Praytor
LaTisha Redding
Dallas Taylor
Leah Thomas
Karin Tidbeck
Tom Underberg
Kali Wallace
Kai Ashante Wilson

Way to go.  As for the rest of us, we wait in agony for CW to call or email or send an owl.

Another Monday

As if Mondays aren’t ad enough, here I face a “spring forward” Monday with Clarion West anticipation hanging thick in the air, midterms at the end of the week, and the knowledge that there is no spring break following said midterms (stupid snow days).  Top that off with inexplicable lower back pain and I have a recipe for a day I don’t want to deal with.  I don’t even want to go to bed because I know that Monday is on the other side.  And I’m not usually much of a Monday hater; it’s just a day, right?

So what part of it has the most influence?  I’d say 1) Clarion, 2) back pain, 3) DST, and the rest of the pack stumbling together at the rear.

So what am I going to do about it?  Not much.  I’ll keep sloughing through the days until stuff starts to give.  The CW anticipation will end eventually.  The back pain will go away or I’ll go to the doctor about it.  I’ll adjust to the time change soon enough.  Midterms will come and go like they always do, with rotten grades.  Monday gives way to Tuesday and it’ll hit Friday before long and I can complain about the next week next Sunday.

I may avoid further writing until I hear about CW.  (“What?” ” You heretic!” “Burn the witch!”)  I have noticed, unfortunately, that when I write on my computer, I am that much closer to the internet.  I need to focus on some “real life” stuff for a little while for my distractions.  Grade that pile of papers, wash all those dishes, make that overdue run to the dump, clean a bathroom…  My back (sure wish I had a clue what I did to it) is going to get in the way of some of that, but not all.  Writing is going to have to wait until I can actually focus on writing.  The writing I’ve been doing has been glacial at best, anyway.  The stories will still be there after the call (or email).

Cutting Wires

I’ve gotten a lot of email today.  Each time I loaded my hotmail there seemed to be another one.  Each time. that number next to the word Inbox made my heart race.  “This could be the Clarion West rejection email.” Or “Maybe CW is doing acceptances electronically this year.”  Or it could be any other sort of news.  Clicking the link to view the inbox was like clipping wires on a bomb.  Would this one release the tension?  Blow everything to kingdom come?  Do nothing?

They were pretty much all do-nothings.  The euphoria following a no-blow-up is sweet, but not so sweet as the rush I’d like to feel.

Most of those emails were comment announcements from wordpress.  They’ve been keeping me going today, despite the breath holding they inspire.  Thanks to everyone who chimed in.  I tell you now, I will cry if I get rejected.  It will happen.  I didn’t last year, I don’t think, but I’ve put an awful lot of hopes on going.  Don’t worry, I’ll be crying if I get in, too.  I’m just a crier.

The one tiny detonation I had was a (very fast) rejection from Parsec Ink’s Triangulation Anthology: End of the Rainbow.  They liked the story’s opening abd “were with me” through the middle, but my protag went a little too John McClane for their taste.  Seeing that she starts the story as a chick drying her hair in her apartment, I can see their point.

I should have workshopped the story before sending it.  I always workshop my stories before sending them out (a couple flash pieces and YA pieces excluded).  I knew there was something off about the story, something hokey, but I was having trouble putting my finger on it.  They put their finger on it.  Now I’ve tweaked it; she’s still a little yippee-ki-yay at the end, but at least she has a better transition and more help getting there.  The problem is, the story is now a blazing beacon that says “I was rejected by the anthology I was meant for, but my writer sent me to you hoping for a lucky break.”  I tried to make a sci-fi story out of “End of the Rainbow”.  It’s a little obvious.

Oh, I could strip the rainbow references out of it, but it would fall pretty flat.  The whole plot was concocted as a reason to use the word Rainbow.  No pro market is going to touch this one, which is too bad since the characters in the story are quite human.

I have a market or two in mind for it, ones that have helped me get this far and I feel like I owe them a favor or two in return.  The Sam’s Dot Publishing zines have bought half the stories I’ve sold to date.  If I can get them a tiny bit of press off my name with WotF (and hopefully CW), then I’ll be happy.  If you’re just starting to sub stories, keep them in mind.  They are great people to work with.  The pay for stories is token at best, but it’s not always about that.  Even if you don’t sub there, read they’re online stuff — it’s free.  Or buy something from them at a Con or through Genre Mall.  In other words, help keep my pals in business.

Well, another day, another no call.  They made some calls on Sundays last year, so the fretting isn’t over.  You know, if they’d just reject me, my wife and I could go get a new car with the money (as if the money I’ll use to go to CW actually exists somewhere).  Life will move on if I make it or if I don’t.  But until I know, things will keep standing still.

Impatience loves company

Hello lurkers.  I know you’re out there, refreshing the page, waiting to see if I dig up any more Clarion gossip or whatever you’re looking for.  I know you’re out there because, for the third day in a row, I have a record number of hits, so many that it makes my normal days’ hits seem obsolete.

It’s okay, this is a lurker-safe zone.  (Or is it a lurker safe-zone?)  I just wanted to make you feel welcome and offer you a venue to chatter.  Or not, lurking works, too.  But it’s so much more fun to hear what’s on your minds.  How are you dealing with the wait?  How many times have you tried Clarion?  Or if that’s not it, what brings you here?  What should I talk about to keep you coming back?  Anything to help us keep our minds off the waiting.

Summer and other things that may not happen

The lack of new news is driving me mad.  I want to know something…about CW, about who actually made C-SD, something!

It’s one thing to know I can (slowly) get my career going even if I don’t go through a Clarion workshop.  I get that, I can handle it.  The real issue is that while other people start talking about summer plans, I am wrapped in either spending six weeks as a writer with writers doing writer things or trying to find ways to fill my summer a piece at a time.

If I get in CW, I’ll spend six weeks away from my wife and daughter.  Six weeks!  I haven’t spent six consecutive days away from my daughter since her birth or from my wife since we got married a decade ago.  Going to Clarion will be a gargantuan sacrifice and emotional drain.  (I may be able to channel that into a story, should it come to pass.)  If I don’t go, I have that massive loss before me, a feeling of disappointment so strong that last year I didn’t write anything new while the workshop took place.  (Not sure if I’ve confessed that here before or not.)  I’m just a very emotional guy.

Every day that passes — every hour that passes without news pulls me in both directions at once, preparing me simultaneously to have no workshop and no family.  I need hints like an junkie needs methadone.

Patience is gone now; only anxiety remains.  I think I’m going to get some chamomile to calm my nerves.  Or maybe something stronger.

Random Thoughts and other delicacies

I’d like to start off with a nice thank you to everyone who has offered warm wishes and condolences and even logic-laced pep talks following my C-SD rejection.  I appreciate you all.  They do not, however, change the fact that I will be a bit of an ass until I hear from Clarion West.

I am a little bothered by the fact that apparently all of C-SD’s rejections have gone out but none of the acceptances have been claimed.  Odd way to conduct business, isn’t it?  What reason could they have to maintain the shroud of secrecy this long?  Don’t tell anyone if you make it, but we’ll let the people know they didn’t.  Seeing a list of people who made it makes me feel better about not making it (unless I recognize names and feel insulted that they “beat” me).  Right now it feels like these rejections are the “hell nos” while they whittle down the top few.  I find it hard to believe my stories fell into the “hell no” category.  They weren’t perfect, but they were better than last year’s stories that warranted a “very close” note in my rejection (that not every rejection received).

I need to remind myself that there are a wide range of writers who apply for Clarion.  Some are already either SFWA members or qualified to be.  Then again, I always hear stories about the writer who has neer sent anything to a magazine and gets into Clarion on the first try.  Do those things still happen?  Maybe.

I had a better showing with CW last year than I did with C-SD.  Surely that pattern will continue.  My inability to count pages may still hinder me, but Neile assured me it wouldn’t be as bad as I originally feared.  I’m still waiting for the first verified CW response to leak to the web.  I spotted a blog that suggested a CW rejection, but it could have been a poorly worded admission that they didn’t apply to CW at all.  I’m also waiting for any sign that acceptances come out, SD or Seattle.  The best sign would be a ringing telephone.  Last year, Jordan Lapp leaked his call very uncovertly on the CW forum and hysteria ensued for about three weeks over it.  Maybe they’e made calls and asked the acceptances to keep quiet, like C-SD does.  Maybe they haven’t gotten around to calling yet.  The question marks are driving me mad.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m still in good shape if I don’t get in to CW.  I’ve got the WotF win to ride and the WotF workshop to attend (for learning and hobnobbing), so I’ll still have a pretty good flight plan for becoming a real pro.  Not everyone will have that.  Was it selfish to even apply for Clarion?  Possibly.  I don’t get to be selfish much as a teacher, husband, and father.  So a little bit of writer selfishness isn’t so bad.  I’ll pay it forward one day.

Clarion Response

[Check the date. This post is about Clarion 2010.]

Wow.

I got my email today.  I said I shouldn’t be overconfident.  I was right.  Flat rejection.  No waitlist, not even a particularly warm invitation to apply again, just thanks-but-no-thanks.

I am Scott’s blank astonishment.

There’s still Seattle where I only submitted my WotF story.  Was the other that bad?  Were my cuts to bring the WotF story down to 6000-words that devastating?  I’m lost for words, very unlike me.  I knew I was being overconfident.  Karma’s a bitch.

So I wait resolutely and much less confidently for CW.  I need to remember, tastes run the gamut and what works one place doesn’t work everywhere.  I’ll try to remember the reciprocal point; it’s more useful.  For now, I’ll walk around stunned and pissy until I hear from CW.  Then I’ll be happy or really pissy.

Bearmoticons

To bring a little Oso back into my site (I miss him), I’ve added Bearmoticons to my sidebar. I had some extra time while working in detention and started to play with an old bear face. Mostly it’ll be a way to tell if I’ve heard any new news about stories or Clarion because the face will go from to  or .

World Building

A little research suggests that world building is a huuuge part of the formula for a WotF win.  I say this based on the stories I’ve read in old anthologies, my own personal world-building peak in “Poison Inside the Walls”, and the few stories of other winners I’ve had the chance to eyeball.  (Winning has perks.)  Without divulging (or even hinting at) details, I wanted to sare some world building advice based on my observations.

  1. Don’t stare at the sunset. I don’t care if there are three suns and they cause green lightning on the horizon, don’t just look at it.  The parts of the milieu (world, culture, etc. of your story) that most affect your story will be things the character interacts with.  Want to describe a door?  Walk a character through it.  Want to describe the food?  Take a bite.  Want to describe the sunset?  How does it influence your character?  Maybe it creates unfavorable glare on a monitor.  Or causes solar-powered equipment to switch to reserve power?  Describe whatever you want, but find a way to advance either the plot or the character(s) while you do it.
  2. If you do stare at sunsets, make sure it’s important to the plot. If you can remove an element from the story without altering the plot structure, don’t describe it.  Or a better way to say it, the number of words used to describe something should be directly proportional to its importance to the story.  I’m working on a story with two moons.  Their relative position in the sky determines the timing of the festival the story is based on.  Still, they aren’t directly involved in the plot, just its timing.  So I mention them, but no one marvels at their beauty or anything.  If the sunset marks the moment the protagonist’s boyfriend met her AND proposed to her AND said I do AND is being put to death, maybe this warrants a few poetic words.
  3. Don’t hide anything. Why should you?  The written word is a slow enough method for relaying information.  If you can fill in another piece of the puzzle early on, do it.  Once the reader knows everything, stop writing.  A story of discovery is just that, chaining discovery after discovery together for your character.  Nothing pulls a reader in better than having them feel like they understand.  Think how fast Harry Potter learns things once Hagrid shows up.  There’s always more to learn when it becomes important.
  4. Spread things out. Nothing’s more boring than watching all the props set up on stage before the play starts.  Get the action going and fill in the milieu as pieces become important.  Remember #3, don’t hold things too long, but don’t dump everything at once.  In PItW, description starts with mushrooms (a little bit like a sunset, but very important to the plot in multiple ways), then it moves on to alien habits that tell strategic information about the enemy without being a dossier, then to the city, the culture, an on.  I could have started with a history lesson explaining why the warriors were women and the status of things on the moon, but why?  Move through the story with a flashlight, illuminating things when you get there.  If you aren’t going there in this story, leave it dark.  Do not be Dan Brown.
  5. Embrace symbols when they occur, but don’t blueprint them. Unless you’re Hawthorne (who bores me), symbols are not likely to be the center of your story.  But they are likely very important.  The more important an item is to the story, the more symbolic it probably is.  The One Ring.  The Monolith.  A lightning-shaped scar.  The Battle Room.  If you’re familiar with these stories, you know which story I’m talking about just from each noun.  Central items that carry a world of symbolism and which the plot falls apart without.  If a lucky rabbit’s foot is your symbol, could the plot survive without it?  If it can, it’s beneath extrapolation.  Don’t go looking for symbols to describe; they’ll find you.

Most of this advice can be found other places, probably in better forms.  I just wanted to pass my observations on to you.  If you can throw a reader into a world very different from ours in a way that directly influences the plot and answer their questions as they arise without stopping story motion to do so, you can write a story that will succeed at WotF.  It still may not win, but you’ll have a lot of momentum to ride.  It’s as helpful to say that if you can jump into the air and repeatedly find a way to propel your complete body mass upward again before it comes down and without touching the ground or other solid objects, you can fly.  But having a goal.  It takes a lot of crashes before you can fly.  Keep at it, one day you’ll find you missed the ground.

Writers of the Future XXVI authors

One of my current goals as a writer is to improve my online visibility and enhance all other forms of self-promotion.  I can only suspect that my fellow WotF XXVI winners have similar goals.  Thus I have taken strides to increase all our visibilities by making our websites and blogs easier to find via this handy set of links.

If anyone else wants a copy of these links to post on their website or blog, feel free to take them.  Or I’d be happy to send you the code for easy insert (not that it’s complicated…if it was, I wouldn’t be able to do it).

WotF vol. XXVI

1st Quarter
1st Place Tom Crosshill
2nd Place Alex Black
3rd Place K.C. Ball
2nd Quarter
1st Place Jason Fischer
2nd Place Simon Cooper
3rd Place Jeff Young
3rd Quarter
1st Place Brent Knowles
2nd Place Adam Colston
3rd Place Brad Torgersen
4th Quarter
1st Place Laurie Tom
2nd Place Scott W. Baker
3rd Place Lael Salaets